Ep. 3.2 Mental Health Medication and Street Skating

In season 3 episode 2 of Skate Date we talk about mental health and what it's like to be on medication for our broken brains. In the Wheel World we discuss street skating! It's a long episode because we really got into it this week! We think you are going to love this episode.

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Rebel: 0:09

Oh my gosh. It's skating. Welcome to the best roller skate and non roller skate podcast out there.

Shove: 0:17

Talking about being humble.

Rebel: 0:23

I try and be the best.

Shove: 0:24

We try to be the best. Yeah.

Rebel: 0:26

Welcome to the place where we try and be the best. That's it, but can only be one. Okay, so what's up everybody? Welcome to This Week of skate day.

Shove: 0:39

It's another Wednesday.

Rebel: 0:41

It is another bright and wonderful hump day. And, yeah, so I'm rebel. I'm shove and together we are shovel.

Shove: 0:51

Can you dig it?

Rebel: 0:52

I can. slinks so. Yeah. Anyways. I don't know. I just think it's so funny that we're like, we can dig it. We almost call this podcast the dig. Or like the digs. The digs was shovel. Mm hmm. Yeah. And so now it's just that's how we did it. Anyways,

Shove: 1:14

I think the camera is slightly crooked, but we're just gonna roll with it.

Rebel: 1:19

I feel like for some reason, like way taller, just

Shove: 1:22

hold your phone a little different.

Rebel: 1:24

Yeah, it's fine. Um, today we're going to talk about medication. And streetscaping so it's gonna be an interesting episode. I'm really excited about what you have lined up because

Shove: 1:37

new painkillers when do you hurt yourself? streetscaping

Rebel: 1:41

No, but that's an excellent connection. But that's not the kind of man I don't want

Shove: 1:45

to listen to this this podcast then. Wow. Okay, I'll come back next episode.

Rebel: 1:51

Don't leave. Stay, please. So if you're out there, and you're listening to the podcast, and you haven't yet subscribed to our YouTube channel, you should definitely do that. Because we have 826 subscribers. We're so freakin close to hitting 1000 subscribers. Yeah, it's like wearables obsession is I'm like really obsessed with it, right. But anyways,

Shove: 2:12

I'm just like, it'll happen when it happens. But Rob has been very proactive. So maybe it will. I'm trying

Rebel: 2:17

to be proactive. We're trying to do this. So how was your week babes?

Shove: 2:22

It was great. I skated three times in a row, which is really great. Um, I haven't really been skating because you know, depression. So that's been cool. My body is so dead right now. Especially like my upper back, which is weird. And like, my arms are just so tired. And then like, my good knee, like me that doesn't get like the knee injuries, like, was hurting really bad the other day but or yesterday, but, you know, I'm hanging in there. It was worth it. Skater die.

Rebel: 2:54

Yeah, hell yeah. Skate or Die. I've had a good week. I've been really busy. I've been working. I finished up my last week of the intercession teaching. And tomorrow, or I guess, two days ago for y'all is my first day of the spring semester. So I've just been prepping for that. And spending a lot of time trying to like organize my holiday, you know, throw up all over the house. Just stuff is just everywhere, because I just didn't want to do anything for the break. So yeah, we've just been trying to do that. And then it's been cool, because my shop has been kind of popping off a little bit. And I have a Valentine's Day drop. That's happening. Actually. Oh my gosh, what day is Wednesday? Sunday is the 30th 31st Well, I hope it's dropping before. Yeah, it's dropping before so the Valentine's Day drop just happened yesterday. If you haven't checked it out, you should go and check it out. There's a bunch of new stuff on tears to the queers.com right now there's a bunch of Valentine's Day stuff. And also like Valentine's Day adjacent like like hearts and like pinks and reds and I was

Shove: 4:10

at a photo shoot today for it. I was a model.

Rebel: 4:13

Yeah, we have a rainbow of heart sunglasses now with glitter in them. And a bunch of new bags, one of the bags that I think is gonna sell out instantly because they are so freakin cute. I'm like, dying over them. But yeah, so if you haven't done that, you should check that out and then start spending all my time doing I'm talking

Shove: 4:32

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Rebel: 4:36

Yeah, you'll get 5% off.

Shove: 4:39

I don't know. What's your thing? Yeah, you get five I always forget I'm like, is it $5 or 5%? So I just say for a discount.

Rebel: 4:46

I don't remember any to look it up. You get a discount if you use code shove and then shove gets money if you use ketchup, so it's pretty dope. Thanks. Yeah. Someone actually used her code for first time yesterday, so

Shove: 5:01

it was so I was like finally Gu. Yeah.

Rebel: 5:05

But yeah, so there's like lots of cool stuff. And I'm really proud of it. So that's what I've really been investing my time and effort into.

Shove: 5:11

Yeah. And since we don't really do ads, but I just want to Whoa, my voice. I just want to throw out there. If you want to save money on anything, so if you shop any of the project pinup stuff that you see on her website, we do have a code that's going to be skate date. scaping, if you shop anything from anything from cheers to the queers comm code shove will save you money. If you shop at Moxie skates.com code rebel or code shove will save you $5 off of 15 or more. Any other codes

Rebel: 5:50

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Shove: 5:57

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Rebel: 6:03

We're just throwing discounts back and forth is actually pretty cool for y'all because all it is is just giving you like free money.

Shove: 6:09

Yeah, basically. So just a reminder, like if you go shopping just ways to save money. Yeah.

Rebel: 6:15

And if you ever need a vibrator, I have a code for honey adult play. The link is in my Instagram bio. But you can get like a solid discount. I think it's like 20 It's like a crazy discount.

Shove: 6:27

That's still going Yeah, it's

Rebel: 6:28

like still existing. And every once in a while people use it. And I'm like, dope. Yeah,

Shove: 6:33

now people are thinking about you and they get off. I love it. So fun. Not gonna party. No, murder them all. Alright, so let's jump on in.

Rebel: 6:43

Oh, before we do that, though, if you ever did want to have an ad, like if you wanted us to promote your business or your anything, just hit us up at skate date. podcast@gmail.com. And we will send you your rates our rates for ads, and we can promote your business and it'll be super cool.

Shove: 7:04

Oh, capitalism. Yeah.

Rebel: 7:08

We're basically just trying to pay for this podcast so that it can stay running. The more

Shove: 7:13

if I actually get paid for this. I might like, be like, hell yeah, let's do that podcast. Right? No, me the money for my time. Right now. I'm just doing it like it's like a soul project. What do they call it like a heart project? It's called a Heart Project. I don't know what I'm talking about. But like the whole like, it's a labor of love.

Rebel: 7:34

Yeah,

Shove: 7:35

so yeah, heart pretty much.

Rebel: 7:37

But yeah, so the basically the thing is, is that we pay for a platform to hold all our episodes on, and then we also pay for a music subscription every month. So we know we're in the hole every month for this podcast. So we're just trying to like even it out. And that's why we also want more subscribers on YouTube because then we can monetize our YouTube. Exactly is is the thing.

Shove: 7:59

Alright, so now it's time to comment about a comment about a comment from last week. Yeah, we're

Rebel: 8:05

gonna pick our favorite comments and add them in there. Well, there

Shove: 8:08

was only two comments on the channel. So it was really easy because one wasn't a question. But I was asked where my shirt was from, it was actually a dress a very who T body con tight dress. If you go to my Instagram, you'll see me wearing it with blue tights. I got that from Forever 21 It's so cute three years ago, maybe four years ago, literally

Rebel: 8:31

so cute. When she wears it with a Bray. I'm like, oh my God is so cute.

Shove: 8:34

I've worn the dress twice. And the first time rebel wasn't around, but I did have a break. And I sent her a picture. Yes, she was out of state. But it was one of those things that like I wore when I got first got and then I never worry again. And then three years later, I was like, I'm gonna finally wear this.

Rebel: 8:51

I love that. So the comment that I got is actually in the form of a DM on our escape D Instagram. And it was in response not necessarily the last episode because I think people don't know we started again yet, which is why there aren't as many comments and stuff. But the it was bringing up the fact that there is a musical that is specifically on roller skates. I know we had talked about like musicals and like roller skates and stuff, but it's called Starlight Express. And apparently it's active in Germany or something but apparently it's been going on for like a very long time. And it is like this wild what it appears to be. Is this like wild like fantasy land robot ask it's not robots for sure. But they're like very like fantasy but not like mythical creatures more like I would I would say like the capital and Hunger Games like that. That's what their outfits seem to be. Almost it's like almost steampunk. Yeah, yeah, maybe. But I also only had a clip in like a different language and I was like trying to watch but they have these stages, and like their audience members in between the stages. And then they skate from stage to stage and they like dance and like, do all this stuff. And I guess the whole, the whole show is just everyone is on roller skates. That's dope, which is wild. So anyways, so someone messaged us about that. And I was like, that's so cool. So that's my response. I think that's cool. I'm now going to try and find it in English. If anyone has it in English, please let me know. So I can find it and watch it and make sure you watch it even though she probably will hate it. Awesome. But that being said, let's jump right in. Finally, let's go is the real world?

Shove: 10:53

Yes is? Oh, yeah, right before this, we were changing. We know that. Now. See thing that happens when you're like, get that bile filete in your throat and I thought it was gonna throw up. And I was like, oh, no, all I have is like a hot tea.

Rebel: 11:07

Right here.

Shove: 11:08

So I did, but I feel like my throat is burning. Oh, gee, when that happen?

Rebel: 11:12

I hate when that happens. It's a worst. And it's like, just reminds you that you're getting old. You know? I mean? Like, what random shit happens to me like that. I'm like, I'm not sick. I'm just not young anymore. No, no, it

Shove: 11:24

happens even when you're young. It's just like, it just

Rebel: 11:27

happens more often when you're older. And you're eating like foods that you used to eat while you're young. Yeah, that's how I feel like anytime I eat extra bad foods. I'm like, I have more repercussions now.

Shove: 11:37

Don't call out people. All right. So we're going to talk about medication.

Rebel: 11:41

So when you say medication, what do you mean?

Shove: 11:45

crazy pills.

Rebel: 11:47

So we're talking about mental health medication, we're not talking about like, we're not going to be your pharmacist right now. And we're not saying just like a disclaimer, that the medication that we've been prescribed that we take is the correct medication for you. This is medication that we have been prescribed by a person who has a degree in it, and who has tailored their life mendation Oh, a license. Yeah. And has tailored their recommendation to our individual needs. So this is just our personal this is just our personal story time. Story time.

Shove: 12:23

Okay. Hmm. Maybe they're not as crazy as they used to be. Or a little different.

Rebel: 12:32

You know, what's funny, I actually just saw something on Instagram right before coming in here. That was like, oh, like, there could only be one crazy one in the relationship. And I'm that person. And I was like, No, dude, like, we were even talking. What was it? Was it last week or a few days ago when we were talking? Like, I don't think that I could be in a relationship with someone who is 100% sane. Oh, no. Like, I don't know that a sane person like I was like, I would you wouldn't understand me and I would feel not inferior, but I would just feel weird. Like, you feel guilty. And

Shove: 13:10

I'd be like, oh, man, like I am just another part of luggage he after carry. But instead of being like, hey, we both struggle with this. It's like, now I struggle with it. And you have to help be there, like and not understand and struggle with instead of having your own demons to struggle.

Rebel: 13:26

Yeah, and I do think that there's something really beautiful about being like, like, there are times when both of us are in the pit. And that's rough. But more often than not, it's like we switch off like that we have our kind of crazy moments. And we're able to understand what's happening. You know, even if it's not like a full understanding. It's like, Oh, I understand there's like a mental health issue going on there. And I can kind of just like ask, like, what you need. And then just like, move from that as opposed to being like, what's going on? Even though in the beginning, I think we're both trying to figure each other out a bit. And we definitely had those moments. Way less now. True. Yeah. Anyways, so medication.

Shove: 14:09

You want to go first? Sure. Um,

Rebel: 14:11

so I feel like I've talked about this a little bit already. When I started it. And when I felt like it was going well, but before so I had a big like preconceived notion about medication. I was really, really nervous about getting on medication for my ADHD. I was actually nervous about being officially diagnosed. And then that really wasn't that big of a deal. It actually was like relieving to me. But then I like was given medication, actually, oh my gosh, before I was given medication for ADHD, I was actually given medicine for my depression. And I never took it. Like I was like, I don't actually feel comfortable taking that medication because I felt like I was on my way out of the Very, because I was in a very, very dark place. I don't know how many of you could tell in January of last year, but I was not doing so hot. And so I was in like a very, very dark place. And that's when I started therapy. And I think that my prescriber was kind of like, whoa, like, she's in a really dark place. Like we should give her something. And I got it. And I asked my mom about it, because my mom is all sorts of crazy and has many, many, many medications. And so are actually all of is it just the feet? No, it's all the people in my family except for my dad. Pretty much but my Yeah, everyone has mental health problems. So my mom's taken a lot of meds. So I asked her like, Hey, have you ever taken this Med, and it was Wellbutrin, which is like, a little good for ADHD and also good for depression. And I just didn't feel comfortable with it. And she said that it reacted with her really poorly too. And that was already after me feeling uncomfortable about it. So then I just decided not to take it and just see how therapy could get me by. And therapy really helps with depression. So I was like, I already just had this kind of trepidation towards medication, you know?

Shove: 16:17

Well, you're a rapper now.

Rebel: 16:20

Well, I just feel like, I feel like when you have when you grow up, and I don't know, like, Were your did your parents have a lot of medications when you were young? No, they

Shove: 16:29

robbed talk reality.

Rebel: 16:31

Yeah, so my parents, my mom, I don't know if my dad really had many medications. But my mom always had like, a lot of medications, like there were she has a lot of she has a few illnesses, and then also mental health issues on top of that. And so for me, I was always scared of like, that medication would make me end up be like my mom. And I really didn't want that. And so I just was, I don't know, fearful of it. So then they finally like prescribed me Adderall for my ADHD. And they were like, seriously, this is going to help you so much like, you should just try it. And so I tried it. And they put me on 20 milligrams of extended release Adderall. And from the very first day that I tried it, I was like, Holy crap. Like, I feel now that I know what it feels like to be on medication and be on medication for a while. It's like when I'm not on Adderall. It's like, there is like, my thoughts are all running, like marathons around each other all the time. Like, there's always so many thoughts, and there's all and it's always going a million miles per second. Like, I would have a really hard time even if I was talking to someone like I would be talking to shove, who I obviously am very interested in. Obviously, I love her very much. And like, even if she was talking to me about something I really cared about, like, I would find myself like off in another world all of a sudden, because I would start thinking about like, my to do list or I would start thinking about like, and it wasn't important things I was thinking about. It wasn't like serious matters that needed to be addressed. It was that my brain just like could not focus on whatever was going on. And I would get really bored easily and just I had a lot of I have very severe ADHD. So um, yeah, so ever since I've been on that it's been a lot better. And I feel like clarity. And now it doesn't feel like the first week or so I was like, euphoric about it. Because I just felt like I could be in the moment in ways that I could never be in the moment before. And it felt like for the first time in my life I was in the moment like I had never felt like what it actually felt like to be in the moment. Like whenever people use that phrase. I was like, what kind of insane shit are you talking about? But I like finally got it. And it blew my mind. Yeah, but now it doesn't feel like that all the time, obviously, like your body gets used to it. But is very clear. I think I talked about this last week. Like it's very clear when I have a day when I'm definitely taking my medicine and there. It's very clear when I have not taken my medicine like even today. I was like What have you not taking your medicine yet? And I was like, Oh no, I guess not. Just like, Huh, okay, well, here it is. Because I think that I'm like a lot less miserable to be around when I've had my medication and not saying that I'm a miserable person or that ADHD makes someone miserable. It's just that in the same way that I think medication helps shove to be like, so much. Like, I don't know, I just I really like being around her even more than I did before. I think I'm the same way not that I was bad before but just that like the things that can be don't know,

Shove: 20:00

my patience isn't tested anywhere, like sometimes it's just like or like being upset. Like, why don't you remember this? We just talked about it like little things where it didn't feel like she cared enough where it was just you what? wasn't listening because she was distracted, and not concentrated in our memories really bad. And like all these little things that just like narrow down to like, Oh, you have ADHD that we didn't know about?

Rebel: 20:25

Yeah. And I remember always feeling so bad, because like, you would tell me things, and then you'd be like, you don't remember that, like, super important thing that I told you. And I would literally be like, I literally don't remember it. And that still happens a lot. Like definitely Adderall doesn't solve for my memory issues. But I feel like it maybe happens a little less. And yeah, so that's cool. And it's cool to like, have knowledge of like, why I was like certain things

Shove: 20:56

or like the emotional part of it, too. I think like, now, it's easier to like talk out emotions and you feeling things so strongly? The first time, I think it definitely helps you and things like that. And then were you nervous when they said Adderall, just knowing that like, Adderall has such a bad rap for just being abused.

Rebel: 21:21

I don't know. So actually, something about the story that I left out is they tried to offer me a different medication first, and the different medication that they tried to offer me I looked up like as we're talking about it, and like the first reaction or the first like, side effect is like sluggishness, and I, I know that I will not continue to take a medication that makes me feel sluggish. Like I just, it goes against my lifestyle, it goes against who I am as a person. And I think that was my biggest fear more than Oh, like Adderall or something, whatever. My biggest fear was not continuing to be myself. And I do believe that my kind of, you know, hyper hyperfocus on things is actually like, a cool part of who I am, you know, even though it's also like an annoying part of ADHD, you know, like, they're, they're just my ability to accomplish so much like that stuff. I was very worried about that dissipating like, yeah, and, you know, not being me. And so I said, I don't want to take something that's gonna make me sluggish. And then it was like, sluggish, and weight gain. And I was like, No, I can't do that, like, that's gonna spiral me, like, that's not gonna put me in a good place, like sluggish is like the number one red flag. So then they were like, Okay, well, we'll put you on Adderall. And honestly, when I heard Adderall, I just thought, I guess we'll find out if I really have ADHD or not. Like, that was literally my thought it wasn't necessarily like, oh, it has this bad rap. I was like, am I gonna get addicted to this because I don't want to be addicted to it. And I also was, like, I really don't want to be more hyped that I am already. Like, if I somehow end up being more hyped than I am, this will not work

Shove: 23:14

then this mean, you know, yeah,

Rebel: 23:17

it would not like life wouldn't work. Like it would be really bad. And so my, you know, prescribed was like, oh, yeah, like you. If you do get like super hyped. That means, yeah, that you did not have ADHD. And I was like, Oh, okay. So I took the medication, not really worrying about that kind of stuff. So it was more like I've told people about it, and had people react kind of weirdly, but I don't really care what people think I just care about how I feel. So

Shove: 23:44

how long has it been since you've been on? Adderall? It's been six months. Do you feel like there's been because I know they say are you 20 milligrams, which like, I'll mention this later for myself too. But like, is not like fishing for someone that hasn't taken any medication for what they've big nine is diagnosed with yet. Like, I know, they'll be like five or like 10 but they went straight for 20 because they did tell you you had like an extreme case. So it's starting at 20. And then six months later still being on 20. Do you feel like it still affects the same? Do you feel like it's weaker? Has it kind of just been the same all around?

Rebel: 24:24

Yeah, it's been pretty much the same. I do notice that there are things that aren't as effective like I do still notice that I kind of get like scatterbrained still. But I feel like I'm not ready to bridge that like can we up my medicine yet? Because I'm still I don't know. I'm just it makes me nervous to up the medication at all. I feel like it is serving me for sure. Whether or not it's serving me less I think I still I need some more time to figure

Shove: 25:01

out I think like medications on a magical pill. Like, it's not like boom, now you're cured. Your mental illness is gone. As long as you take this magical pill, it's just making it manageable.

Rebel: 25:11

Yeah. And that's what I didn't realize. I thought like, Oh, I'm gonna take Adderall. And then like, all everything's gonna go and honestly, that's how it thought it. That's how it that's how it felt for the first week, like the first week. I was like, I have never experienced the world like this. Is this how people feel? Is this like, what is it?

Shove: 25:35

I have an important question? Yes. Because we were just watching something like this, do you think there's any chance that it was like, the medication mixed with placebo effect? Like because, you know, I'm taking something I already think this pill is gonna cure everything. But then it's like working and it is doing like half like 70% Maybe a what your like your high, like, what you're really putting it up for? So maybe that's why and then like, after a week, he got used to it. And it was like, Oh, I'm still doing better, but it's not like the high or do you think it was just because it was the first time taking it?

Rebel: 26:07

I think it was because it was the first time taking it. And this is gonna sound really like weird and straight edge. I mean, even though I'm not at all. But like, I've never really taken medication for anything before except for asthma. And I don't really do drugs that often. And I don't really drink that often. And so for me like that first week, and this is going to go against everything that people say that you should feel when you first started medication, but like I felt high, almost like, I am not high. Like I felt like I was like like that there was a sheet covering my body. And for the first time that she had been taken off. Like, I remember, I No. No. So like, this sounds I again, I don't know why I feel like almost emotional right now. I

Shove: 27:00

was like, Are you gonna cry? Yeah, like, but like, because I see amazing grace.

Rebel: 27:05

No, it's because I was thinking about the the most impactful moment. Oh my, I'm totally gonna cry right now. Okay. So the most impactful moment for me was that first week, I don't remember if it was the first day or the second day, I put my skates was the first day because you called me. I put my skates on, and I skated outside. And it was like, I had never experienced skating like that before. It was like, I was like, in touch with my body and in touch with the ground. And like, in the moment, actually just skating for the first time ever. And it felt so amazing. Like, if I can imagine what, you know, people say that like the most biggest amount of bliss that you can feel like that's what it felt like. And I was just blown away. I was so blown away. And I didn't even know feeling like that was possible, you know. And so I don't know that it didn't feel. I don't think that I could trick myself into feeling like that, because I wouldn't even have known how to like, what to expect. Like I didn't know what to expect. They didn't tell me what was going to happen. They just told me like, you know, take this, it'll help. So I don't think I could have tricked myself. I think maybe like, it was enhanced, probably by my like, I think because I honestly didn't think it was gonna work. That's why I don't think it was a placebo thing. But I think once it did start working, and I did experience that that first day. I was like, I had a very positive attitude towards it. Yeah. Nice. Yeah, so that's pretty much my journey with Adderall. What about your journey with medication?

Shove: 28:57

Alright, so about a year and a month ago, I started le maqtal That is a mood stabilizer

Rebel: 29:07

sounds like the name of a dinosaur. It has

Shove: 29:11

a longer name. I can't think about it right now. But it's My Little Mac tool. And it's way easier to say it's let's just call it a metal. This is I talked about being on it. I did have because I'm very vocal on social media about medication and mental illness and everything and one because I want to break the stigma and two because I know I have so many followers that there's gonna be a good amount of people that have had or gone through or you know, do have whatever things I've experienced, so they give me good advice, whether it's negative or positive and I really love that because it helps me make an informed decision besides just Googling and looking at Reddit and hoping to find an answer. So with a Mac tool, a lot of people were like oh like bla bla bla person like by My partner really liked this one. But there was a side effect or other people are like, Oh, I wish to go back on this one, or I really liked that one. So I was like, Alright, cool. And it started with 25 milligrams. And I was like, the side effects were like, a little weird. Like my words, were getting jumbled up or like, I already get anxious and forget a lot of things and stumble over my words, but I was like, way worse. And that lasted like a week or so. The side effects were like too bad with that one. It was just like little slight things here and there. And then like, every couple weeks or so I think every three weeks they upped it again. So then it was like, oh, take two of them to be 50 milligrams. And then I finally got me the 50 milligram pill, so it wasn't taking so many pills, and then it went up to 100. And each time I increased, like the first time I was like, Ooh, my brain feels like it a little change. It was definitely a more like, a week or two for it to kick in. Not like Adderall where it was like instantaneous. Your body did have to like get used to it. But it didn't take that long, like a week or two. I was like, Okay, there's something. What's interesting, though, it wasn't really like cheery, my depression, it was more like, instead of filling Six Feet Under, I feel like maybe I'm only one foot with a straw that I can still read. But there's soul weight on my chest, if that makes sense. You know? Yeah, totally. Um, so then I would still experience like, my ups too, but they weren't as happy. The anger wasn't as strong. There was like little things. It wasn't like as often like, there definitely were like little changes here and there. But I think not enough that can notice because in my head, I think I was expecting I think I didn't understand the definition of mood stabilizer and anti depressant. So I was really thinking like, this is gonna help get me out of that hole. But therapy definitely helped more than the medication. The mood stabilizer just made it less of a topsy turvy roller coaster.

Rebel: 32:11

I mean, I could definitely notice the change when you started the medication. So I think it was doing something I just think it wasn't doing. It was like one step. You know, like, it wasn't the whole shebang.

Shove: 32:24

Yeah. And like my mania didn't last as long or get as crazy as like, I know, it gets inside because like, I think like with mania, it's really easy for me to kind of like, hide or just seeing comes off as like, Oh, she's not depressed. Like it almost feels like it's weird. Like I saw me and I was like, Is this mania? Like, is this me doing better and being healthy? Or is it just mania? It's like, because it starts off is just like, you think you're good. But it's like, also, like, I do feel this kind of rush inside me. And I do feel like I am invincible right now. And I might make bad choices. And it's the typical, like shops way too much. Or it's just like, I don't know, like a lot of hyper things in my mind that like I don't want to like, I don't talk about really, but it's just like in there. And then that's, that's that's like easier for me to like, I guess not talk about depression, it's easier to talk about.

Rebel: 33:21

And you think also like, I didn't used to be able to notice when you're manic because I just thought like, ooh, fun shove. Now, I can definitely put my finger on it pretty quickly. Pretty quickly. I'm like up that's mania. But yeah, before I was just like party time, but it's cool to be able to notice too, and I think it's yeah, it's definitely something that it takes you a long time of knowing someone to recognize

Shove: 33:49

once I was diagnosed, I was like, sorry to kind of do the math and be like, Oh, that's what that was. Like. That's like, I thought I just didn't have guilt for things or I just thought like, that was a little weird, but like, it's looking back, I can see the ups and downs are like how that happiness was not healthy happiness. So it definitely helped with that. But as time went on, I noticed like specially maybe, I don't know, in this summer, so like the depression was like last name, uh, we too long, up to this month, like it was just going darker and darker for me. And I felt like, usually it doesn't last that long. So I was like, Okay, what the hell? Like is my medication not working anymore? And maybe I need to be up on it. I finally decided to like talk to someone about it. So I talked to my health care provider, and I was just like, Yeah, honestly, I even told my therapist because I wanted to start trauma therapy and she already said I wasn't ready, but I had told her I was ready. And I really wanted to get in there so I didn't tell her but I told my provider which I know is shady but whatever. I was just like I get the drugs like maybe that'll help because like this therapy I've been in a year, and we haven't started yet, and like, I really think I'm ready, but at the same time, Mimi, I'm not ready. And of course, like she picked up on it because we started like a month after, but I was talking to her to my provider, and I was just like, fully broke down. And I was just like, yeah, like the thoughts of suicide are coming back. I'm not in a good place like my medication. Like, I know, it's helping some, but it's not helping with this feeling of despair. And so she talked to me about antidepressants. At first, she wanted to put me on Zoloft. And I was just like, Okay, I've seen the commercials, because apparently just in America bouncing Yeah, the little bouncing bubble and all sad, you know, and you want to smile. So I was like, okay, like, see the commercial out that she's telling me I'm like, What's the side effects and she's same thing like weight gain, like, all that stuff. And I'm like, Well, I'm already like, trying to, like, remain active. Like, I now have a job where I said, ask, like, I don't want to add to that the shoe the weight, and that has nothing to do with not being body positive or not being body positive. It's just I don't want to add something that's like, gonna put weight to me if I don't need to. Yeah. So she was like, well, we also have Prozac. Prozac can be weight loss, but it cannot maybe wait to weight gain. But people because I told her like, wow, like, I struggle with binge eating. And so I don't want like, what everything is like, gonna go hand in hand. And I guess they actually prescribed Prozac to people that are under have anorexia. Really? Yeah. And bulimic? I don't know, like, something about it. They give it to people with anorexia, bulimia, and with depression and with acute anxiety.

Rebel: 36:50

They actually give Adderall to people extended release the one that I'm on to people who are really struggling to lose weight, and they can't.

Shove: 36:56

Oh, wow. Interesting. Interesting. Makes sense. Um, but so it was just like, it was I got really scared because the side effects were really long. When I looked at the packaging, and even online, I was like, oh, no, but she went ahead and diagnose new 20, which I later while I was like, researching was like, oh, usually, people start off with 10. But okay, whatever. I used to always wonder why people would always be like, Oh, medication, like, it's the hardest part and blah, blah, because the mood stabilizer I was taking was like, oh, a weekend and there you go, you're good. You should be feeling it. And then we'll just up it more and more. Versus like, with the Prozac, like, literally like five to six weeks. So even like, feel something wild. That's so long

Rebel: 37:41

and to have like side effects to? I don't know.

Shove: 37:45

Yeah. So um, Prozac is what's called a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor. It's an SSRI, which it's way easier for me remember, so SSRIs are pills that are going to help release serotonin and my brain serotonin, if you don't know is the happiness that our mind already our brain creates. So people that are depressed usually don't have that serotonin boost that they need. I had someone in my class and cause Beauty School, don't think I'm bougie and I'm in college. If you need to go my coworker or my co say, my classmate, my classmate was like, Oh, I don't get it. Like, isn't therapy like your medication? Like I thought, like, if something was wrong, if you're depressed, like you just go therapy, like, why do you need medication? And I was like, so some people are depressed, and they can talk to someone and feel better. Some people have something mentally, like, physically wrong in their brain, and they need that medicine to help it just like if someone has a headache, they're gonna take Tylenol. Now who just talked to someone and then their headache goes away.

Rebel: 39:02

I always call it to explain it to me. She would say I'm clinically depressed which Yeah, I need medication to help me with my depression.

Shove: 39:09

Yeah, I think he felt bad because he's always like, I'm just so depressed. I'm so depressed. And then there's me and one other girl that I like, actually go to therapy, and we'll just look at each other. Like, you don't even know. You don't know you're sad. You're sad. You're not depressed. If you're really there, but people just always like they're like, I'm so so bipolar is my ADHD or it's my LCD, near like, like, can you not? But yeah, so it has been a little over five weeks. Um, I took my first pill on New Year's Eve. Because he now seemed right. No, it actually just came by it's perfect way to start me here. I would say that it's almost crazy because like, It's been roughly five weeks and I think I'm starting to feel a difference. The next week I should really no. Which is great. But the side effects were really tough. Yeah,

Rebel: 40:06

what were your side effects,

Shove: 40:07

the main one was nausea. I got really nauseous to the point of where one day we're moving the warehouse like because we had just moved Moxie HQ, while I'm also on new meds and it's very physical. And I went in, I didn't really eat that morning, straight into, like heavy lifting, had taken my medication already. And I literally had to run to the bathroom and throw up and then just lay outside, like on the floor, like in the parking lot for a while. The nausea still happens. I haven't thrown up again since then. But now I really need to make sure I'm like drinking water and eating when I take it, because otherwise, like it'll be like 30 minutes or two hours of really nauseous, kind of like seasick. And then the rest of the day, I'll be fine. So I'm like, okay, I can deal with that. Dry mouth, which is just like annoying because like, I can't whether I'm like drinking water nonstop all day, I'm just like, my mouth was dry, like right now dry.

Rebel: 41:08

That was the one symptom that I had with my Adderall was my mouth got dry. But then it was like went away.

Shove: 41:15

My anxiety I've had like, super, I had a little bit of anxiety the other day when we were doing that shoot. And I was just I think like, I was like, overwhelmed. I can do were running late. And they knew, like I didn't feel safe. We were skating. So I was just like little normal things. But like now I bounced my leg a lot. Like, like, don't even notice I'm at work. And I'm just like doing it. My leg. Yeah,

Rebel: 41:39

I was like, Babe, what are you doing?

Shove: 41:40

Yeah, now that's just the thing I do daily, pretty much. I'll wait a few more weeks, maybe a whole month, if like the side effects are too much. And I'm like, Oh, I don't think this is for me. I will let them know whether they need to lower it. Or I need to try something else. But it's just like, if this one's not the one and I do need to take something else, then I'll really really understand why people on antidepressants are always saying like, Oh, just sucks so hard to find the right pill because that means I'll take something else and have to wait another month or two to know if it works.

Rebel: 42:13

Yeah, that's really frustrating and annoying. And

Shove: 42:17

yeah. But yeah, definitely, um, I know it's happening to you too. But posting online about it. I did get a handful of people, more people were supportive, but they were like, don't do it, like medication. So bad, like will ruin you and all this stuff.

Rebel: 42:36

Yeah, I really hate that. Because I think that that's another one of those things like not to compare it to gear policing, but like, you don't know what's going on in my body. Like, just because you had a certain reaction to medication and you have a certain maybe political opinion about medication doesn't mean that that's what's going to be the same for mine. And like, I really think like, if you really do have like a negative experience with the medication, like the way to go about it isn't just like, hey, stop, don't do it. It's like, Hey, I've had a certain experience. Would you like me to share that with you? Like, that's the way the conversation should start? Not let me dump all of my experience with this right on you. Because just because you posted it on the internet doesn't mean you're asking to hear all about someone else's experience and their advice for you. Because in all honesty, are you do you have a certification or a license to prescribe medication? Do you know all about my like, like mind and all the things that are going on with me? Probably not, since you're just a follower on Instagram.

Shove: 43:45

I appreciated when people shared their story whether it was good or bad. I just didn't appreciate the people that were like, don't just told me not to. It was like, just give me the information and I'm gonna make my choice but don't like judge me because I choose medication. My mom didn't choose medication. And she was she was diagnosed bipolar, bipolar, and it made things so much worse. I believe like, just to know that I could have had a more sane mother possibly with better memories is such just cut. My mom thought that she would be a zombie if she took medication, and I am definitely not a zombie. I am not

Rebel: 44:24

even kind of I'd say you're more yourself now than you are off of them.

Shove: 44:28

Exactly. So um, yeah, I mean, make informed decisions. Don't just jump on it, really think about it. But that's all I could say really. And don't add today if you feel like Hey, I am looking to get on medication. Can I have a little bit more information after listening to this? Go ahead and sign in my DMs. Rebel I don't know if you feel the same way but I have no problem talking to you about like my personal like DelBene and even more because of course we've already been talking for a long time. I'm sorry. But like, if you have more questions, or you want me to expand on this, I have no problem. Just go ahead and message me.

Rebel: 45:07

Yeah. And to be clear, I also don't have a problem with people expressing their experience with medication. But my problem is explicitly when you say, Oh, don't do it because of blah, blah, blah, or you should ask for this because of blah, blah, blah. It's like, No, I don't think you know, what's good for my body, you might know what's good for your body, you might have an experience. And I'd like to hear that experience. But I don't want to hear your opinion about it, about what's going on in my body. And I think that that comes from some history of trauma in my life. So, but like, I know, like, I'm super grateful I reached out to someone who I don't know extremely well, but they had been open on the internet about ADHD and like starting Adderall and stuff, and I reached out to them because I was having like, a really like hard moments before I took it. And they really, really helped me navigate through the process. And I was really, really appreciative of that. So if there's anyone who feels like oh my god, I have ADHD or think I've he and I don't know what to do or whatever, like, my inbox is definitely always open. Awesome. Alright, anyways, time to jump into the wheel world. Welcome to the we'll world where we're going to talk about

Unknown: 46:38

streets, street skating,

Rebel: 46:41

what street skating

Shove: 46:43

when you skate mystery.

Rebel: 46:45

Okay, so what kind of street skating? Are we talking about? Or are there different types of street skating? Or is all street skating the same?

Shove: 46:51

So there's casual street skating, and that's what I do that is just in what rebel does. That's just like, skating in your neighborhood. I like to joke that I'm like, my, like, Baby aggressive street skater. Only because like, I don't do tricks. But I am a daredevil when it comes to cars. Like I'm just like, I don't care. Like just like you see, like, I'm actually New York when you see like bike messengers, and they're just like, diving, weaving in between traffic whenever I get a rush from that and like, I don't really care. I'm really good at like seeing like the velocity of the car knowing I have enough time. But of course, that's not aggressive skating. That is just like, I'm being a concrete surfer, not asphalt surfer.

Rebel: 47:33

Yeah, I definitely when I give it. When I skate in the streets, I definitely see myself as just like, a person escapes on all surfaces, and enjoys skating on the actual street. But I would love to be someday in my dreams and aggressive street skater.

Shove: 47:52

You better hurry up because they're yet no, yeah, I'm gonna skate park enough, because we're talking about go wrestle the streets. Yeah, so

Rebel: 48:01

we're talking about aggressive street skating,

Shove: 48:03

we're talking about like what you saw in street fighters. Yeah, if

Rebel: 48:07

you didn't watch roller ghuli, aka Carly Craig street fighters. You should watch that we'll link it down below. But basically, street Street Fighters was a compilation of a bunch of street skaters.

Shove: 48:20

Yes. And street skating can be like, you'll see some people just turning like the world into their skatepark. Whether it's just like, on a ledge somewhere, or there might be like, like, a little safe like a handicap drill, and then they can fly it on it or they can like jump up on it. The like, see things that you'll see at the skate park on the street side and we'll be like, I'm gonna do that. And then there's like super super scary aggressive where it's like really sketchy situations like where you're gonna end and go on to a busy street like

Rebel: 48:55

Yeah, I think a lot of aggressive skating is sketchy situations illegal. I'm gonna go out here. Yeah, MSA before we like super get into this is that street skating is definitely illegal and definitely super dangerous. And we are not necessarily advocating that you go and try aggressive street skating. That is a decision that you have to make on your own with complete knowledge that it is dangerous and you can get really hurt and that you could get in trouble but that out of the way.

Shove: 49:27

Oh my gosh, you just mean like the lawyer this episode no interest.

Rebel: 49:31

There. We're just suggesting a lot of things today that we don't normally see.

Shove: 49:35

We're not suggesting should suggest seem we're just talking or

Rebel: 49:39

talking about it. Yeah. But so when you see people like jumping gaps, like say you you see like big concrete slabs and then people are jumping from slab to slab or if you see someone on an in and out sign, and they're like riding that or if you see someone like grinding on Different ledges and random stuff that wasn't created to be like, skated on

Shove: 50:06

where they're like, look at that Tim stair. I'm gonna jump in, look at that 15 stair, I'm gonna freakin ride that rail and you're like, oh,

Rebel: 50:15

like are they like, get on top of a roof, and then they jump off. Now let's jump over stuff.

Shove: 50:21

A lot of this you'll see in skateboarding and you look at like any skateboarding movie that you can find on YouTube. That's like, street skating, like, you're gonna see what we're talking about. And then it's like, insane. And then a lot of airliners do it. But when it comes to roller skaters, we're now finding out we just found out this is new for us. It's like, it's that it's non existent. Yeah, considering how many roller skaters there are. It's so minuscule the amount of skaters that are street skaters, like aggressive streets like we're talking like the Ghoulies of the world, and estrogens and the spicy IVs.

Rebel: 51:08

Yeah, like, there's so few of them. And so we're on a hunt to find more aggressive street skaters. Yeah, because there's got to be more and there's got to be more, but just no one talks about it. And it's not showing up anywhere on the internet. But I've been searching.

Shove: 51:23

Yeah. And then like the people that I put out, like a call to action link, let me know. And there was like all people I knew. And even when I look at those people, it's like, they are street skating. They're street skaters. But are they doing like, this crazy date? like Uber dangerous, like scary stuff

Rebel: 51:42

that Nick the medic does? Yeah. So insane. So

Shove: 51:46

then I'm like, No, those people are far in between. Like, I'll see it on Instagram here and there. And I can see people starting the one that had that way because they're getting missing tours. Yeah, because they're getting like bored at this skate park. Because I feel like all these people you see, on the street side at the skate park, like just need someone to be like, Yo, come out into the world with me. But heads up, you could get a ticket or get hit by a car. Like so

Rebel: 52:11

terrifying. Are you open to this? And if you are, let's do it. But like your risk, you're choosing this?

Shove: 52:20

Yeah. And I think that's why some people are afraid because like, unless they just like, see someone doing it. They're like, Yo, I want to do this cool. But people don't really want to be responsible to like, go cherry pick skaters and be like, come with me. You'll probably really get hurt. But yeah, I'll teach you and then like feel like shit when something goes wrong. So like I understand it, but like, there's got to be more people out there. Like, I don't know, the skate community. So make so

Rebel: 52:45

big. Yeah, I definitely am on the level of like, skating in places I'm not supposed to skate in. Like, I skate in so many places that I've I've gotten kicked out of so many places on my skates. My default setting is I'm just gonna skate here until I get kicked out. And then I might be like, Why are you kicking me out? I didn't see a sign. Even if there was a sign. So like, I'm on that level when it comes to like streets getting but shine of anything. But yeah, so the reason so why are we like talking about this? Why do we care about street skating? Are we just trying to let the people know like what street skating is? And then find more aggressive street skaters? Or do we want to become aggressive street skaters? Like what's, what's our thoughts?

Shove: 53:29

I just want to talk about it. Well, I guess you too, because it was in conversation with some skaters. Like we have some street skaters that are in town right now. And like, it's like crazy, because you see the street skaters that do exist and the near like, Well, for me right away. And one of my friends. She's a woman of color. We're like, Oh, my God, are there only white street skaters like this can't be. I only started really thinking about it. And then we even talked to them about it. And they were saying how they always have conversations about how like, where are all the people of color, like, but some of the ones like at least female like female, non non binary, because there's a couple guys that do street skate. Like if you remember from Street Fighter, so there's guys in there. But guess what? All those guys were in liners. Yeah, they didn't start as roller skaters. And it's really easy because they already got it on in lines and then they switch to quads. And then they just ace it. And I know if you're listening to this, how many times do you see even a skateboarder but specifically in inliner, put on rollerskates and just shred and they're like, immediately and you're like why? Yeah, they're like already doing grinds and dropping in and like all kinds of stuff like without hesitation and you're like, it's I've been doing this for a year and I can't even do that. Yeah, it's wild. So to find like, someone that started and quality, like only skates quads, and is an aggressive street skater is really rare, like, female or non binary. So I think and then like you like period like as a white like a white person. And then a delve even more into a subcategory and be like when we have someone that's a POC, female or non binary person that aggressive street parts. And like after having that conversation, it was just like there have to exist. Like, I was like, This is bullshit. There's got to be people in color that are like super hardcore, like throwing themselves like deep in danger, like the most dangerous shit, you can think. Like, there's got to be these people that exist that are like, I don't know, I couldn't find them. I just couldn't find them.

Rebel: 55:47

I feel like they are just not proliferating on the internet, right? feel like they are there. And they're just like, being gnarly, and like killing it. And we're just not seeing their content, or they're not creating content. I definitely feel like there are, I'm sure, like a bunch of like super gnarly skaters in like Latin America, that I just like don't know, oh, 100% of Latin America, there's I know that they're there. But I want to know that

Shove: 56:19

because a lot of them don't even have like the appropriate skate parks or like enough of them. So they have to head into the streets. And then you think about like the impoverished cities that like barely have like nice sidewalks already. So if you think about it, it's like, that looks like a ramp because it's already broken, or that's a gap because of this. So they're kind of like get creative, because they just have to because that's the environment already. So they're already skating on gnarly terrain.

Rebel: 56:47

I just feel like they're out there. So if you know someone, or if you are that person, comment, we want to see you we want to know you. We want to admire you. Basically, is it because we just started trying to learn rails for the first time and wow, it's wild. I'm so freaked out but I also Oh, you said rails with these rail reels. Oh, right. Like no rail. Looks like what we've been doing. No rails. Yeah, no, like I we just started for the first time and I was like,

Shove: 57:19

Yeah, again, why we're talking about this because all the talk about freakin street skating. And then I had the opportunity to have a lovely friend and boss lady. The estrogen is in town for work. So we wanted to all hang out. After we clocked out on Friday. And rebel was at home because you know, working a boring job at home. And wish I was like we should skate so that I was lucky I had my something told me it was so weird to cuz I had left my park skates at the office and some of my other ones and like, something was like, just leave them here. It's fine. And I took my other skates home and then Michelle left to get their skates. And then they brought EV skates because he was like, okay, my skates too. So, like I'm back and then as soon as I hit five, we're like, all right, and they pulled out the heart rail. And it's like a nice flat rail. And in my head I'm like, Okay, I was wondering what they meant by we would be skating up the warehouse and I played it hella cool. And that was the first time I was like, huh, bench to medication saying the kicking because I didn't like go oh no, I can't do this. I had no kneepads nothing I had no year all I have never gone on a rail before. And I'm over here like, okay, cool. Okay, that's fine. Even Evie has me pads on Sydney hazard earbuds on? Michelle. Chris has nothing. And then like they're like, Okay, so let's put your foot on that sound like Okay, I just kept going. And then I'm like, Okay, who am I? Like, usually, especially if I don't have safety gear. I'm like, Y'all crazy. I'll be over there. And I was proud of myself for just doing it and I had so much fun. And I like called Rebel and I was like, You need to get over here. Grab your skates come right now.

Rebel: 59:05

Yeah, and I was like, I actually have to finish some things but okay. And then I came and then it was super fun and I was really scared but then I did it kind of not really but kind of did it. And then

Shove: 59:17

Mockito that was was cool too as Michelle before you got there and Michelle was really teaching us names and terms like if a trick is like if you took that and pretended it was like coping and you were on around like what it meant if it was top and top is like when your chest like your crotch is facing into around like that's taught. And then how like finally got to ask question like about slides versus Grimes.

Rebel: 59:42

Is it really this versus this? So say for the people that aren't watching? Oh, I think that a slide is when you so like if your skates are pointing forward and the coping or the rail goes perpendicular to your skin. And then I think a grind is when your, your, your trucks and your like blocks or whatever you have one foot is in front of the other and then your skates, like almost hug the coping or the rail. And it's like that.

Shove: 1:00:17

Alright, so a lot of people do say that and depending on where you're skating respect, that is what I learned. But technically, it's which everything is a grind. Because if you really wanted to talk about it, if you're doing a is it 5050? Or is a 5050? When your boss is 50? No, not 5050. If you're doing a like, porn star, or a train, I remember all the names because I had them down. I'm really bad at grind names. But like when you have one skate one way and when the other than what's up, because technically lots of slide and grind. Yeah, I wonder trumped other, I feel like, we thought, Oh, it's a grind just because one foot goes like that. But you don't one doesn't trump the other. So when it started, when I started going, it was like, there weren't always blocks, right. So it was called a plate stall or a plate slide. And then if you went on the truck, it was a truck slide or a trunk, a truck glide, so your truck or it was plate, then people's arguing blocks, and then it was called a block grind, or it was the limit kept switching back and forth. So a lot of mom like if we try to not be too crazy, because like if roller skaters started doing that, after in liners, there was already a trick name made before a roller skater came and they're calling them grinds. They should all be grinding to make it less complicated, because we're all skaters. Yeah, it makes sense. But they call them slide blocks. But you hear some people say grind blocks. And that's why we now know those are both correct answers. But if you go somewhere at a skate park, and everyone's like, saying that term, and that's just like the language of the land, just respect that and just call it that and don't be like, actually, it's this

Rebel: 1:01:57

interesting. I always thought it was like grind on the trucks, and then slide on the block.

Shove: 1:02:03

Yeah, I don't come from you. If you're like, actually, that's wrong, because it's all debatable and like, some things are debatable. I'm not skating trying to be like CIB and like rewrite the whole dictionary. And like, be like, it's really hard to like, have one entity, say like, we're gonna write a tricky scenario. And this is what it is. I think you need people from like, that have been in skating for so long. And that all skate something different, like your park, your street skaters. Like, I think they need to come together to agree on these terms. Because there's so many things just wrong in there or like disagreeable or like, you know, like there seems to be an agreement. Yeah, like it's just not the word of law. And not take it so seriously. Like I've heard people get in arguments about TRICARE. Yes. So serious. And it's like, how about we just do the thing with the thing and then when you do it, you're like, whoo, good job. You did that thing. Yeah.

Rebel: 1:02:56

But obviously like respect that people that came before you I think that that's a big thing that I like think is important is like when you know someone did come up with a name like respecting them and respecting that.

Shove: 1:03:08

Yeah, only bad thing I saw was like, people trying to name tricks that have already been done, like have a name. And now like, I

Rebel: 1:03:15

mean, yeah, I'm so annoyed by that. Like, you're you are just started here. Like what?

Shove: 1:03:20

And then they're like, no, because they did it at a 25 degree angle and I didn't know 30 degree angle. Like it's the same trick. You just went a little higher. I'm gonna call no names, but I've seen that. But yeah, so

Rebel: 1:03:35

so that street skating. Yeah, I hope you enjoyed our little conversation. I feel like street skating will come up again in the future. But that's what we've got right now. We just wanted to start talking about it up a little

Shove: 1:03:47

bit. Oh, season three we're schooling and have long episode I know right? Yikes. We need to go back to being depressed and not wanting to talk that shorter.

Rebel: 1:03:56

Alright, let's move on.

Shove: 1:04:12

Trick of the Week, this time rebel found someone yo

Rebel: 1:04:17

I'm so excited about this Trick of the Week. Okay. So let me explain it to you everyone who is like, not watching right now. But basically the trick of the week is Maddie Quayle posted this ma di Q UAIL on Instagram. And basically what it is, is a skater is like standing there ready. And then a another person has a big cement block like one of those things that you park is like the parking block. They put that on top of a skateboard, and then they release this skateboard down around And the roller skater comes up and slides on the moving block that's on the skateboard. And it is red. Let me show it to you.

Shove: 1:05:17

at us, it's so cool. Like, the timing has to be perfect with that. Yeah.

Rebel: 1:05:23

Also, who's grabbing it afterwards? Because I'm scared. It's gonna hurt someone's ankle. Um, yeah, so that's the trick of the week this week. I'm like, hella impressed by that. I have. I'm okay. The reason why I picked that is because I'm super obsessed with when people use like skateboards and different objects, found objects to add and like, make tricks more interesting. So like, I'm a big fan of people who like put a skateboard at the top of a ramp, and then they come up and then they stall on the skateboard. Instead of the coping, like I'm a big fan of that. So I just thought that this was a moving element and then the like cement block. I was like, Oh, it was amazing. Such a good skater. Incredible. Great job. Thanks for being our Trick of the Week. Matty Qualls trick you're

Shove: 1:06:16

there like to just call me a what? A trick. Yeah, no, your turn.

Rebel: 1:06:21

Your tricks are awesome. And they made our week. Yeah.

Shove: 1:06:25

Oh my gosh.

Rebel: 1:06:27

Alright, let's move on to our obsessions.

Shove: 1:06:44

Okay, so we're gonna talk about these websites. When I looked down at the notepad, and I saw rebel dongan watching. It says, Do you wrote dog?

Rebel: 1:07:00

Okay, well, I guess I'll go with my obsession first, then because you blew it. That's okay. So my obsession this last week has definitely been doing and watching. Get Ready With Me videos. If you don't follow me on social media, I now make a get ready with me video pretty much every day. I've been doing it everyday. This week. I'm trying not to do it on the weekends, necessarily. So I give myself a break. But what I like about it, and the reason why I'm so obsessed with it is one it's forcing me to actually, like get dressed and an outfit that I really like in the morning. And it helps me to feel better about myself, and really helps me to be just like a little bit less depressed and more motivated. And to it's forcing me to be more creative with my outfits because I feel like I have that potential. And every time I'm put to the test, I can push through. But a lot of times, I'll just be lazy with it. And so I'm trying to give myself a reason in the morning to like, really, like push the envelope a little bit more with my fashion. Nice. Yeah. And so I love watching other people's because it inspires me and then I'm really enjoying like, posting it because I think it's fun. It's like pretty easy to do. I definitely throwing more clothes around all over the place and like trying more things or like houses definitely more messy, but going to learn how to regulate that moving forward. And yeah, I'm just like totally obsessed with that. So that's what I'm obsessed with. And I'm totally obsessed with the fact that like other people are now like, oh yeah, we're gonna do outfit of the day too. Because it's like, I hate that once you are like a well known roller skater or whatever, like people only expect you to post roller skating content. And so I just decided, like fuck that I want to post fashion content. I'll also post rollerskating content but like, let me be me. And I like that. It's like empowering other people to do the same thing as well because we are not just roller skaters we have more to us than just our roller skating. You might not believe that but there are many aspects to us as humans.

Shove: 1:09:12

Oh my god yes.

Rebel: 1:09:14

What what are you obsessed with this week shove

Shove: 1:09:17

I'm back on my murder Reno shit again. I have been listening to my favorite murder as I am driving to and from work again. As well as jumping back on my Bailey Syrian Diana you know the suspicion the nene the makeup murder Mondays? She's amazing.

Rebel: 1:09:44

Yeah, she's awesome. I love her

Shove: 1:09:46

pill. Like I just you know I identify as many levels like I love my my favorite murder, right and like they're cool and they're funny. They make me laugh, but I feel like my I wouldn't hang out with them. But I want to be like best friends with them, you know, but like Bailey, Sara, and I would be besties. Like, I want to be her sister. I feel like I want to hang out all the time. And I feel like her kind of sense of humor and the things she says, and her weird faces. I'm like, I love you. And she's just like, the amount of research she does all by herself. And the fact that she can do her makeup, which is amazing. Yeah,

Rebel: 1:10:24

she does it so well. Yeah. And, like,

Shove: 1:10:26

tell these stories, just like I really appreciate the effort that she puts into it. So she's pretty amazing. I have been, I'm like upset cuz I do have episodes to catch up on. But I'm like, I need more. Because I love new ones, but I'm trying to get into her podcast, but it's just not hitting the same. Um, but one day I'll get there.

Rebel: 1:10:50

Okay, so I know that I already had one. But I just realized that I actually have another one that I'm way more obsessed with next week, and because I'm going to be obsessed with someone else or something else next week, but this girl drew off vuelo I don't know how to pronounce her last name. Dr. EWAF u a l o. TED talk. She is on tick tock and she just like listens to these guys who like are just trash humans who are saying shit like, oh, yeah, you're fat. Why even exist and like, all this sort of stuff. And then she'll just laugh at them and then literally destroy them like, she will just take them down like completely like she will just annihilate them. And I and her laugh is so funny and contagious. And she has such good energy and it's just like, it's the best like I for reeking love it so you should 100% Go watch all of her Tik Tok. And I think she's on Instagram too. Like, you've got to find her. You got to watch her stuff. It's hilarious. And I am totally obsessed with it. I literally spent like, a solid hour today just watching all of her stuff to catch up because I was like, wait, I haven't seen them at ease. Because I'm obsessed. I'm obsessed. Do

Shove: 1:12:11

you want me to blow your mind right now? Yes. Do you know she has a podcast?

Rebel: 1:12:15

Oh, she has a podcast? Yes. What is it to

Shove: 1:12:19

idiot girls? Oh her and another girl and it's just cargo in so I think we need to check it out. Because there was a tick tock where had a clip of her one of our episodes. I was like, Holy shit, she has a podcast I need to listen to it. And I forgot until you mentioned it right now.

Rebel: 1:12:36

I literally I don't know this is why I created this segment of the podcast is because I am literally obsessed with her and I needed to talk to people about it. So please get into it and talk to us about it. Oh, that's that's all that's all I'm gonna say.

Shove: 1:12:53

Okay, just like play one. I think you should just put a sound bite and have a reaction on it right like okay, let's do this.

Rebel: 1:13:00

Okay, let me see. Okay, here's one

Shove: 1:13:03

better be a goodie.

Rebel: 1:13:04

I know I'm like trying to see the like most seen one. Okay. Okay, so this one says it is this guy and it starts with Why Are y'all trying to normalize girls with body hair? Sorry but no and this is what it looks like for the people on the YouTube and this is what she says

Unknown: 1:13:37

Good luck in the irony of this being sure don't have a bitch but that's besides the point this is my impression of what I think it was like this thing happens when they post this bucket bullshit. Street packs no foreigner This is my impression of what they think women do neither of which happened instead you got me most embarrassing part about this video to me you were second here Lipson the whole time when you push them out they look the fucking same no pinion Arthur Christmas head ass.

Rebel: 1:14:24

Anyways, so that's just like a best Tamala sound by Yeah, she doesn't really reads them and really does her research too. She like there will be ones where she's like, your tick tock profile had no pictures of you. So I found I found you. I know what you look like your Instagram and then we'll just rip them apart and it's amazing. And you've got to go and I love that she's like, Okay, I promise I'm gonna stop talking about this like so soon but like, she'll literally be like, Yo, you know that like that like the hottest girl you've ever thought of and you're like, Man, I wish she was mine. That girl follows me She is um, she like she's in my group like

Shove: 1:15:07

I think like one of them when she was just like, because people will talk like whenever there's like a douchey guy saying something that's so sexist or homophobic or transphobic any like everyone will Tiger and Tiger Tiger so she back alright, but and then like the like you said just her research and sometimes it's like people already like these men already know so they like blocker real fast before they're like who keeps getting tagged? Oh shit she's gonna come for me so they blocked her and then she'll find it cuz she's like, you think I've got more than what I tell like

Rebel: 1:15:38

so that's we're obsessed. Yeah, so yeah, so you should go check it out and some good laughs I'm good. Definitely good laugh because that's like us. Yes. And tell us what you're obsessed with so we can check it out. All right, that we've done a very long episode, so maybe that's just it. Party. We love hanging out with you. So well see you next Wednesday

Shove: 1:16:02

if we're lucky. We will bye

Rebel: 1:16:25

That's it right you just spit on the microphone.

Shove: 1:16:27

Bye everyone. Bye